Holy Kii'
In my attempt to talk about something beyond myself, I’m
going to talk about everything else.
Bangkok
We went. It was two weeks ago. We ate cheese. It’s a huge
city with even huger malls. We mostly stared at the other whhhite people while
trying to figure out why there was an eyelash extension studio in a freaking sky
train station. We also danced and then smoked Shisa and then I spoke some
Arabic. It was all a bit too nostalgic for embarking on this new and exciting,
wide-as-the-sky grand adventure. Yet the BKK trip confirmed that I’m not here
for pomp and hot dudes in hostels, but for banana trees outnumbering neighbors.
Really, I’m just relieved.
Peace Corps Pre-Service Training culture
We all have cabin fever and can find nothing to talk about beyond
our anticipation for our site announcement tomorrow. And each other, I guess.
Again, it’s all a bit much. Let’s start our job already.
Really, I’m just restless.
Language Competency Exam
Our mouths competed to take up the same space, and our
success or tears definined our competency. It’s all a bit irrelevant and dependent
on our feelings and self perceptions. We are going to pass and will get sworn in. If our
trainers didn’t think so then we would have had a talking to already. And we haven’t.
At this point language will only stop us from making close Thai friends until
we can actually talk beyond what we ate for breakfast. But we do know how to
say more than we did back in the day when we were “di chan chuuing” (Shout out
to my girl Hoi for that golden code-switch moment.) Really we all just want to survive--not
just physically, but emotionally. Making Thai friends doesn’t depend on how we
can analyze cultural differences between our new and old homes, but being able
to laugh and dance and call your mom bababobo (crazy) once in a while.
Really, I’m just learning.
Site Announcement
THIS IS TOMORROW. WE FIND OUT WHERE OUR HOMES FOR THE NEXT
TWO YEARS ARE AAHHHHHINELOQUENTBABBLEABOUTFELINGSANDMIXED
EMOTIONSANDTHENAVAGUEMETAPHORFORSTRESSSAAHHHHHH. Again. Let’s
get this rice-filled, altruistic, isolating experience ~literally and metaphorically~
on the road. The fire in my belly has been forging the steel in my spine for
this experience long enough.
Really, I’m just excited.
Thai Family
I’m really going to miss my Thai host family. I’m sure my
new family at site will provide just as crazy and blog-worthy experiences, but This
one was my first. And they’re special. They’ve been generous, inclusive,
personable, and I wish I could say all of those adjectives in Thai. Still, they’ve
given me the ability to “puut lin” (joke) in a way I may not have been able to otherwise.
They eased my nerves, introduced me to friends, and included me in their evenings
of playing Facebook. Bless them.
Really, I’m just nervous.
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